like I was losing myself,
in the middle of the day
just a big shadow in my mind
my head's screaming
I miss her
I really do
how can everything change
just without one man
and I heard people are the same
my world was wrong, my believe falls
and I miss HER!




just sitting alone with a feeling I can't escape, with a life spilling from my ears and my eyes and my hands and my chest, oh from my chest!

I can do nothing, nothing, nothing
So I watch my destiny dies
from the begginig till the bitter end...


















and I'm scared of the monsters of my thoughts
and I'm terrified cause I miss her
and I'm afraid of the voices inside my house
steps on stairs, oh it's making me insane
making me lost control, making me dead just like them, just like voices

if she was here

"Można zmarnować życie wytyczając granice, albo przeżyć życie przekraczając je. Jeśli człowiek jest gotów zaryzykować widok z drugiej strony zapiera dech w piersiach."









I don't feel like writing here everythin what's happenin wit details. I... just like my journal
I'm totally crazy abt Grey's Anatomy! I can say my life is not happenin by itself recently, fiction's pushing it on. Fiction I mean ... histories, lifes and unreal people. Even though I know they don't exist I believe that magic around it is real, and that's what's keepin me near it.
I believe...I'm still learning...while I'm watching the others. I'm memorising things, earning some empathy and uderstanding easier.

So, I recommend sittin at home!

















I'm in LOVE with VANITY FAIR !

God, bless ya fr creating JONATHAN RHYS MEYERS

well, starting over
I like my vacations, I really do
just a little voice in my head keeps saying I should do something, anything. I guess my body doesn't listen.
but it's OK, because I like it

and I have vacations from any human who is not a woman. Ofc, not in every meaning I mean...I'm just bored. there's no good man to satisfy me

btw...who's talkin abt satisfing ?? only fun matters, right?
alright, let's believe it: one, two, three...




If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine if you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.



hey, listen I'll betray you a secret
I've got a HUUGE mosquito on my poster an its a woman! I like it!

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in fact, I'd rather make a new account, but here's my memories and I have such a sentimental pleasure just using it

I've been missing dA and this journal for so long. I don't understand why I didn't just write sth. Reading my old journales gives so much joy to me.

Well, I don't rather do any photos these days, I regret but I just don't know why. Oh, yes I know...my camera's been broken for a long time, and now I've got a new one in my brand ne phone but it doesn't make good photos. ;<

Yesterday I organised a party, goshh, how great it was!;D
Sb has yacked up on me, right on my face. :]
well, I like the guy, but I think limits exist anyway






















I'm doing well.

When I finally go away,
I know you'll look for me one day

When you let love down,
Oh you let love down...